The Volvo Blues

Well after bragging about my lovely Luna (volvo) She decided to turn her back on me.
Today after class I was heading back to work and she decided to stink and jiggle to a stop.
Luna died today.
I had to make the hardest decision that a volvo mom has to make. Spend the hundreds of dollars and revive her from the dead. Or get paid by some grubby man in overalls, for her beautiful metal body and her remaining working parts. I decided to call up the tow company and tow her lifeless body to the Auto Shop.
I feel that I am doing the right thing by reviving the old girl, however my finger nails keep finding their way between my teeth.
So many "what if's"
what if she breaks down again?
what if she is better then ever?
what if the cost of fixing her is more then my savings?
what if I can't take her on my vacation?
what if... what if....
Tomorrow morning is the big day when she gets to show off her clean record of heath.
She gets to sit proud in our driveway all shiny and silvery.
Tomorrow is the day I get to see the cost of my insane loyalty to my volvo, Luna.