What better time to post

Then 12:30am?
Maybe at noon?? Or 4 hours before or 10 hours after... Right now I should be warm in my bed, beside my wonderful husband, and above my cat. (who sleeps on my feet) Instead I am at work.

I like my job, I really do, however this is not what I want to do for much longer. And I feel like I am better then this.

I feel like there are so many careers that I want to do. I feel torn between the standard female run nursing and the male dominated Forestry preservation and also welding.
I am getting sick of women.

Women are mean, vindictive, and back stabbing. They love to gossip and pull themselves to a new high by making others look or feel low.
This is a common thing when you work in a female dominant career. And sadly, it is likely the only thing I hate about what I do. And because of this, it makes me question my next step into adulthood. Schooling.

I blame being indecisive on being an Aries.

Schooling is great, but only when you know what you want to do. But when you have a few careers that you want to try out then it isn't good.
Nursing is what everyone expects. My friends are all nurses, one side of my family produces nurses like mad, and I talk about nursing a lot.
But then we get into the women issue again.
Can I handle how mean women are? The thought makes me very unhappy.

Then I think about forestry. How much I love the outdoors, and my fairly extensive knowledge of BC's forests. (thanks mom)
I think about how happy I could be wandering and researching. Telling large companies how their buildings will effect our forests and wild life.
I like this idea immensely. But then I think about getting a long term job. Not small contracts. And realize that a long term job likely wouldn't happen in this career field. That I would likely be jobless half of the year.

Then I think, Welding.
Welding can keep me employed 100% of the year. I can travel abroad, work in a long term job within the same company for years and years.
It is hands on work. Which is right up my ally as this is how I learn.
I can make oodles of money and blow it on things like horses and land and sports cars. Then I wonder- will I live long enough to buy cool things?
Welding is fun and exciting but also very dangerous.
I kind of love being alive. You know?

I am perplexed.
How am I going to figure out the rest of my life? I can't seem to decide on what I want to be when I "grow up".

Life is to hard. Why can't I just open a yarn store and be happy for the rest of my life?