Regrets.

Yesterday I was driving and listening to CBC radio. They were interviewing a actress/writer and one of the questions was "do you have any regrets"? She answered the way most people would have answered saying that she didn't have any regrets and that she has learned from all of the things that she did in the past.

I wish I was more like her..

I don't have a lot of regrets because I have learned from the past. But there are still things about me that I don't like. Besides the obvious of my appearance.

I grew up being bullied. I skipped every single day of grade 11 and 12.. Not full days, but classes that I felt were going to be rough for me. I regret that. I wish I had stood up for myself and kicked some ass...

Well there were a couple of times when I did kick some ass, always with popular dick heads. One time in Socials class this guy named Brett was making fun of my fat. He kept doing it over and over. So after making me furious and knowing that he did... I punched him right in the face.... 3 times. HARD. I told the teacher what I had done because I was scared. The teacher laughed and said that Brett deserved it. I don't regret this. Only because I told on myself.

In grade 8 these 2 boys names Kyle and Chris were picking on me in Science class. They kept calling me fat and dinosaur. (it's funny how details become vivid when reminiscing) They were standing on a table together because the teacher was showing us a lab. the class was so big that students had to sit and stand on tables to see what she was doing.
After what seemed like an hour of fat jokes I grabbed BOTH of them by their shirts at the same time. I pulled them both off the table and smashed there heads together. then I smashed their heads into the table. I became super human! These boys were 2 grades ahead of me and failed science. they were the rough boys, the smoke pit kind of guys. And I beat the shit out of them... at the same time!
I regret doing that. Even though they were brain dead before I beat them up. I still should have been able to keep my temper under control. I did get suspended and I deserved that. But neither of them got suspended.
I wish that there was the anti bullying law that there is now. When I was in highschool people like me got it bad. I was smart, but witty and had a mouth like a motor bike. I could have used my mouth and insulted them back, but I was smart and knew that I couldn't hurt them like they have hurt me with words. So I resorted to my fists and my physical strength.

I think that I will blog my regrets for the next few posts... reminiscing has brought loads of crazy memories. And Most of them I regret.

Now my parents will get to see more into my teen life.... Buckle your seat belt mama, your daughter was crazy!!